The mystery of the kruiwagen is solved. The Schubkarren might be a wheelbarrow and if you want to be sure, you look in the internet.

I can not from this place. As I wrote in other SHORT STORIES I am not connected in this place to the internet. And, as I want to be connected, I am looking for another place.

As I do not have time to look physically, I do it energetically. That is, I make myself as seen as possible. To that purpose I even filled out a site in FriendScouts 24.

That is, I had a friend fill it out. There is a question about what others like about you and she filled her opinion in. That is much more nature than if I would give an answer to that question.

I answered some questions in the INTERVIEW that is in there to allow you to tell others what you are like. Formally I could not tell you what I like. Now I can. I like to communicate through internet by this website, by a blogg or whatever it is called, but those communications are just going out.

I speak by writing as a method to get in contact with all those that I can give one the PRESENTS that I have to spend. I have a lot of FLOWERS as I call them to give away.

Lots of people might like them but I do not have the connection yet, to make contact with them. And the internet can help me to get those coming in contacts. You can make CONTACT with me on several ways. Some you find on the page that is behind the word CONTACT, other ways you find behind the word COURSES and others you find in the STORIES that you read.

I seem to discover my handy as a way to get in contact. And I am very happy that there are others that answer my trial of getting contact.

I have a lot of ideas of what I want to do to make contact but the money that is not yet on my account makes, that I can not yet do it the way I would like.

So this website is my contact with the world and I enjoy it. Even now, knowing that no one can read this story or the other ones that I have been written on Christmas 2011.

It was and is a very special Christmas to me. I had contact with all my lovers, the people that I love with my heart and soul. We danced the dance of love and our memories and our plans were accompanying us.

We are people that live in the PRESENT that is eternally. You could call us autistic people. The autistic people know what is going to happen in the future and therefore they do what they do. It seems they do not know what they are doing but they know they are healing WOUNDS to the benefit of the Whole.

Autistic people do have connection to the future as they are IN THE FUTURE but connections to the past are missing. That is the reason that they have difficulties to make contact the normal ways.

They might be able to see what is seen but than they will not be able to hear what is said or to understand what is behind the words he is reading.

Therefore some people must get everything on paper, like me, to be able to understand, others must hear it to understand and some people are so disconnected that they do not understand anything that is going on in the world that goes further that the OWN DOORSTEP.

They are not aware of the light the other one is because they do not want to share that light. They try to keep every light that he meets separated from the other lights knowing that if he brings them together there will be a much bigger light that will no longer be connected to him because he does not want to be connected to this larger light.

He can not bear this amount of light. It makes his own light unseen and he thinks that that is a shame. Because he knows his light would have been much bigger if he had followed his own inner voice.

But no, in this life he decided to experience what it is to bite your teeth, keep your leg stiff and go your own way without wanting to fulfil other ones NEEDS.

And so his light did not get bigger and he did not get healthier even thought he has had the best therapies there are. This person quits the therapy the moment he feels something is going to change.

He does not WANT any change. He wants everything to be the way it is. No adventure is calling this person. If you are looking for adventure you might find a SEMINAR that pulls your attention and that will give you the adventure you are looking for.