You told me your mother is so unhappy and not at all grateful about everything she has. The way you tell me that sounds exactly the way you describe your mother.

Are you telling the way your mother acts and thinks or are you telling me the way you act and think? Can it be, that it is your way of living and thinking, that you see in your mothers behaviour? Are you copying something?

If someone is so negative about someone else I always wonder, why. The reason can be that the other showes the own negative behaviour and one sees that because one knows it from experience.

Like I know how it is not being able to move. I could not move because I gave my power to move to my father as he told me, I would not be able to be able what I wanted to do. I showed him I could do it even if he thought I could not, but my knees hurt so much that I needed three days before I could walk like normal again.

And since I thought I would not be able to do what I wanted to do so I did not even try. I no longer have to do what my father expects from me. I do not have to be a poor person because my father thinks I can not handle money, I do not have to be a tramp because my father thinks I am, I do not have to sleep because my father thinks I have to sleep.

I now are a free person and as a free person I can chose what I do. I do not let my humour be pulled down by someone who has a bad time. I let them have a bad time and enjoy my good time. If they want, they can join my good time. Like you.

You started telling me, you were tired and not in a good mood. During our talk you seem to become awake again and no longer longing for bed.

You tell me about your job and that gives you energy. Like me and my job, treating patients in coma. I know a little bit, what they need and tell that by writing it on my website so everybody can use this knowledge in the treatment of patients in coma.

There are some things, that I can not write about, that have to be experienced. These experiences are part of the hpi - EDUCATIONS and COURSES.