Life is gone and life goes on. I was at the funeral and hardly talked with anybody. But I was there.

I never visited the country where they were born and spent their youth. Their experiences are totally different from mine. The energy of the country has a big impact to the possibilities that the child has to develop his love.

My love was locked in all my youth as that was what I saw. My parents were not able to show me something else as they had been shown from their parents.

The country my mother was born showed my mother something else but she had to leave before she had been able to save it in her system. Her brothers that went back to this place of birth were capable to remember the love flow.

The system of human being is not a stabile system. It is a moving one and all experiences are changing this system. Every experience of love opens the possibility to let the own love flow. Trust is what human being gets if he feels loved.

The mental love is a non-personal love that is mistaken as the cold unloving being. The mental love is the one that makes me write to get connected to my emotional love. My emotional love has been locked in since I was born.

The cold milk that was offered to me 1 hour after I was born made me piss off. I left my body and only the mental part stayed and experienced my life. Somewhere there is a connection with my emotional system but this connection I hardly used because not experiencing emotional love was so painful.

My mother experienced the emotional love with the people that worked at her motherly home. She always had this warm feeling of baboe kokki, the cook of the family. My mother did not like cooking. Somewhere she lost the connection to the kitchen.

The kitchen was where baboe kokki was and where my mother got the emotional love that makes a child feel loved. And as she had to leave the country she had to leave baboe kokki and this emotional mother to her.

My grandmother was a very loving mother, like my mother but they were not able to show this love emotionally. And I copied this way of life. As I copy everything so no I am in the state of patients in coma. I do not have any active contact to the outer world.

My prepaid handy has less than € 3,- on it, my dutch mobile some more and, as SMS does not cost much to send and are free to receive, I use this handy to send SMS. No house telephone makes that I do not speak to anyone from my apartment and an internet connection I can not make here either.

So I have to think about how I can get in contact with the outer world. And if I stay at this place, I do not get in contact with people the way I would like. I can send a SMS but is it read? Is this mobile number still active?

I lost the mobile I bought because my old one was getting old and is now not capable any longer to load, a friend of mine lost her mobile in the water and I had not remembered that the day the water pipe froze and the water ran from the ceiling.

I had send her a SMS because I did not want to spend money from my dutch mobile to call her about the water that ran after it had been frozen, but this SMS will not have arrived her if her mobile was still not able to function. I also sent a SMS to a friend of her and asked to tell her that the water was running.

I did not feel like going to the place where she now lives to tell her personally that the water was running. It was mighty cold and I had the feeling it was not my responsibility. Fortunately the thought to turn off the water came to me.

So I had a good nights sleep, knowing that the water could not destroy the house any longer. And the physical body of the patient is his house. And this house needs water if it is moving. The physical house I live in only needs water if there are people in it who move.

If I lie in bed and just sleep I do not need water. I do not use water. And that is the same for the patient in coma. He is not moving. Not because he does not want but because no one helps him with it. He gets water in stead of movements.

The movements that are made to give the patient water should be transformed in movements with the patient. Movements that are done 12 times in stead of 10 times so they can be remembered.

The patient in coma is not a new born child. He has the remembrance of moving and this remembrance makes that he does not need the therapy that a new born child that needs help to be able to move needs.

The new born child needs movements that make the brain develop. The patient in coma has a brain that is developed and unique. That makes that you can not give all patients the same therapy. That does not work!

You have to find out what does THIS patient need NOW and if you found out and give him that you will feel that he is moving with you! The movements are still in the system but they can only be made it the preparation of the system has opened the skill of moving.

To be able to refind these movements again the system also has to be closed in this new order. That is what hpi-therapy teaches.