This nice wedding cake, gift of love, makes me cry desperately. Why is that than? I am here, sitting in this hotel room, knowing there are people here, I would like to be with, but I am not with them.

My friends are the people in the street. “Hello Sir, how are you doing?” they call to me and I go to them sometimes and we have a talk. Very nice people here. And I know that I am a rich girl, not having the money people think I have just because I am white skinned, but I have friends in the street who help me where ever they can.

I can just walk in in the Batavia Hotel without being asked, what I want there and ask at the reception whatever I want to ask and get a glass of cold tea offered. Just because I am white skinned.

I can go to the toilet there and enjoy the presence of toilet paper, before I go out. The first night I was here, I had my two back packs and was asked, what I wanted there. I was allowed to enter after I told them, that I was looking for a room. White skinned people are discriminated here and to me it is a great fortune!

People would not say: hello sir, or those who see my gender: hello miss, if I would have been coloured skinned. I am someone else. Yes, I know. I am not supposed to tell you who I am, what I feel like, what my vision is. Honesty is what I want to live. I do not want to have to hide a part of me.

I have a female body, but here, most of the people see me as a man. I observed, that there are lots of men here that look very feminine. I like it, I miss this feminine part. I am very masculine. I can not help it. It is me. I even live it in my sexuality, if I have a partner. Is it about rules or is it about love? Is it about caring or is it about not wanting to see what is important in life?

How can people live without being honest? The scene of the rich is it a scene where honesty can be lived? Or is it the scene where there is mostly dishonesty? I know some rich people and I love them. They are very lovely and I have the feeling, that they are honest with me. But can they also live this honesty in the rich scene? And if not, why not? Has corruption to do with it? How does corruption influence their lives and their feelings? Do I feel what they like to live?

I have the idea, that no one wants to lie or use his power to do things, that are not based on love. In my opinion everyone acts out of love if he or she is not connected to fear, based on thoughts that come from mental fear. This mental fear is fed through the opinion of others and can only exist if the person has no self trust. The experiences in our life give us the possibility to learn to trust our intuition and this gives us the security that our opinion is the only one we can trust. If we follow this intuition, we will live our life in love and without any fear. This we will radiate and others will see this and react to it: “hello sir, hello miss, how are you doing?”

I thank all the people I met and who gave me a blink, a word, a gesture, whatever contact there was, it was good for me and I will carry it with me the rest of my life and I hope I could give you something, that you can use in your life. The wedding cake tasted good and I enjoyed it with love, especially for the women, that were involved with it.

Women are in the world the mothers of the children. They carry the child and give it love and feed it. They are connected physically until the child is disconnected after birth. This disconnection is physical, not emotional. The child will always be connected to the mother, whatever distance there is.

For people that love each other, this is the same. Physical distance can be, but emotional the persons are together. The feeling of the energy makes the connection. Energy is the most important part of relations. Relations are not dependent on physical connection or physical being together. Relations exist without meeting one another. The feeling of having seen one another yesterday in stead of meeting 10 years since last time is one of the ways one can experience this.

Relations that are not filled with words are very clear about the energy. Words often are used to tell something else, from what is felt. I am sorry, that I did not learn this language, that is spoken here, but on the other hand, I do not get confused by what is said. I can just see and feel what people mean and am sure I feel the truth. All people I met were honest. The dishonest people did not want to look in my eyes and they do not talk to me. It feels so good, that so many people do talk with me or look at me and just smile or just give me an understanding wink. They want honesty, they do not want korupsi, and they are the ones that must change this world. They know how to use the earth and the water, the sun and the light to get a healthy, beautiful, colourful earth where peace is and love leads everything, so honesty will be the basic of life.

The life, we are living on earth, must have a purpose. This purpose must be a delightful thing because it does not make sense to live an awful life. We are born to experience as much as possible and have our free will to be able to do this the way we want to. If we are fearless, we will never choose a painful way. We will always choose a way full of love and joy and this way we will want to share with all the people that we meet because shared pleasure is much nicer than pleasure on your own.

Sharing is always giving people a good feeling, especially if it is a sharing out of the heart. This always gives all who are involved a feeling of love that wants to be shared and this is the best opportunity to get connected to the Devine Love that leads us if we follow it. We will than experience the richness of life and of all other people in the streets that do not have money but live their love, sharing what they have.

Sharing what I have is what I try. I work day and night, sometimes aware, sometimes not aware, but I am working. I feel very rich, that I am allowed to do so. I will never know, what the result of my work is, but I did my work and I loved it. That is my payment at this moment. I want to stop worrying about how to pay all the bills that I have to pay and want to be able to use all my attention to do the healing work that I do.

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