A root can be found where you were born. The place where you were born always has a connection to you. You might have to return to that place if you have the feeling that you can not find your roots. So I have to travel to Aix-en-Provence.

My parents stayed there on their holiday as I decided it was my time to come. They listened to me and made it possible for me to come and so now I am here.

My roots are in Holland, as I was born there physically. Tilburg is the town where I saw the daily light the first time in this life. The roots that connect me to this place are strong enough to keep me to the earth connected if I get off.

I get off a lot as that is my way of life since I decided that I wanted to experience this. I made an accident as I was 4 years old but it did not have the effect that I had hoped, because my father did not know what I needed.

He thought that I was just one person like all the others but I am not. I am crazy, people say and they are right. I am crazy with patients in coma and with autistic people.

I can not help loving them and love it that I feel their love that does not expect anything from me but just shows me love.

All people that I meet are one of them or both. Like I was an autist in a mental and emotional and physical coma myself.

The people that I meet are mirroring me like I mirror them. Sometimes the people we meet mirror how we will behave in the future, sometimes they mirror us how we behave now and sometimes they show us how we behaved in the past.

The mirror has to be seen to be able to change the own behaviour. I am still not the successful and rich person that I want to be, capable of helping everybody that needs help, but I am glad that I start to look for my roots that seem never to have been there.

Without roots I have been because I was born from parents that lost their roots. They lost them before I was born and that made that they could not show me any roots.

I need roots to do my job as my job is to teach others how to give people that lost their roots a connection to these roots again.

My roots I looked for in Indonesia and found some of them there, after I found some in Kuala Lumpur. The simple act to arrange a bed for me for the night so I would have a good night sleep made me become aware of the fact that I was not aware of my physical needs at all.

It needed others to make me fulfil them. I became aware about the none asking, just giving love that I was looking for as that is my type of love.

The non-demanding, non-expecting, just giving and flowing love that is recognised by each other. The inner knowing that we are one soul with the same goal that is letting this love flow so love will heal all wounds.

Wounds were the cause that love could not flow the way we wanted it to flow as a family and we all were hurt by that and try to heal these wounds. When these wounds are healed love will flow and heal without any demand.

I called and demanded to remember what I have been doing in my life and this demand was honoured.

My memories did not stop any more. At the beginning everything I saw or heard or smelt was the cause of a sentence of remembrances and I never felt livelier before.

This situation became normal and I felt dead again. I started to move and walked a lot and experienced that during these walks I thought very logical and wise thoughts that gave me an insight of what patients in coma need.

I wrote it down as I no longer had access to patients in coma. My attitude was not accepted and made that the changes that I proposed were not made. I was not able to change my attitude that was like the attitude that was shown to me.

I had to wait until I experienced that I had the power to change the attitude of others by changing my attitude. This made that I experienced the power that my attitude has if I mirror the other at the right time.

The right time is what I learned from my mother, always very important. And since I was connected to the time of NOW, I experienced that my intuition knows exactly what will happen and I love to follow this intuition because the experiences that I have if I follow this intuition are full of love, the divine love that does not expect anything in return.

To me my life has become a pool of love that flows even if I am asleep what I try to avoid because I love this feeling of love that flows. I often do not know why I have this feeling but than I just enjoy it and thank heaven that I have this feeling.

To me this feeling is the real payment for the work that I do and that I love to do. Since I started to write down all the experiences that were so painful to me and to others, I learned to speak in emotional situations.

I noticed that the silent writing that I had been doing became after a while a writing accompanied by my voice that was speaking what my fingers were writing and one day I noticed that I could tell what was going on even although I was very emotional.

I could not tell it fluently but I could tell it with a lit of stammering. I noticed it myself and had the idea that the others did not notice it as they were even more emotional than I was.

Emotions were no longer part of my life as they had been so painful that I decided to cut them off so I would not feel them any longer. I succeeded quite well in doing so.

But it did not make me happy. By cutting off the emotions I did not feel the pain but I did not feel the happiness either. My life was without any feeling of emotions. The awareness was gone.

My awareness was gone totally and I did not know any longer who I was and what I wanted to do in this life. And without a goal in this life I do not have a reason to be here and without reason my life is worthless and so I am worthless and being worthless I am not worth to be loved and not being worth to be loved no one will accept my love and because my love is not accepted by anyone I feel dead.

And feeling dead I can kill myself so I am dead. But that I never did. I was sure that could not be true and that one time that I felt this energy that was dark and empty and trying to get me get down further down in the well so I would not be able to get out of it any more I cried 3 times and told this energy that I was getting out and would never ever join it again.

That I would climb out of the well now and never return and that I did. I never felt that energy again that was so full of darkness and is called depression. I lost all my money and had to live in a small place without my personal belongings for some years but I did not really miss them.

I knew I could live without them. I do not need any physical things. The only thing I need is that my love is accepted and since I am connected to autists and patiënts in coma my love is accepted and my life has a goal.

As I could not talk at the most important moments of my life I decided I want to make it possible for everyone to be able to speak about what they want to tell and I want to make it possible for patients in coma to move.

To move without needing any help. That is possible if they get the right treatment. The right treatment is not the treatment that does not change their situation or makes that they have to be taken into hospital. The right treatment makes it possible that the patient can talk and walk.

I always thought I was special, but now I no longer think that. I experienced it. After 4 months of treating patients in coma hpi-therapy has started to develop and I wonder why it was not developed before? Am I that special?

I do not want to be the only one that can treat patients in coma healing. Much more therapists and nurses are needed to treat all the patients in coma so I will teach all those who want to know, what I know so patients in coma will no longer be seen as long-term patients.

They can be on their feet in about 3 years and that must be the goal of all treatments that they get. Honesty is what makes the world happy and honesty is needed to change the attitude of all who are concerned so the patients in coma will get the treatment that they need to come on their feet again so their children, husbands, friends, wives, lovers and all the others involved will be happier because the patient is no longer a patient but a moving person again that can tell about his experiences as a patient in coma.

These experiences will be unique for all patients because they all have their own history as I have my own special history that made that it was me that developed hpi-therapy. I can not help it that it was me.

I denied that I would be able to develop a healing therapy for patients in coma but as I came in the situation where I needed it to be able to do my work the way I am used to, I developed hpi-therapy. All patients in coma and my family and all others that were involved made me develop hpi-therapy.

This healing polarity integration therapy is developed to be used for all patients that need more to be able to move. Not only patients in coma but also the Cerebral Palsy patient can have use for this therapy and so do other neurological patients too.

The patient with the pain in the back will also get another view on his illness if hpi-therapy is integrated in the way of therapy that is used.

Hpi-therapy is not a method that uses a scheme but it is a way of life that has love as starting point. The divine love is connected to the personal love and the personal will has to be connected to the divine will so the person can choose what he wants.

Without being connected with the personal will, which is the case with the patient in coma, the person can not choose what he wants. That is the person that can not answer the question: "what do you want to do with you life?"

This person will do what life offers him without any joy because he does not see the goal of what he is doing. Since I decided, after I was connected to my personal will, that I wanted to make it possible for all people to be able to move and for patients in coma especially, my life has become very interesting.

I experience situations that I never experienced before and I feel that these experiences are filled with love and this love is not demanding anything from me. It is glad that I enjoy it and I am glad that I feel it.

I am no longer afraid to kill people because of my flowing love. I experienced that I can not give people more love than they want to accept. And if they do not want to accept anything from me, I can not give them anything. This is one of the huge securities that I experienced during my time as a physiotherapist.

If the patient does not want to heal, I am powerless. And I am glad that that is the case. I do not like to be forced and I do not want to force anyone to do anything he does not want to do.

I want my freedom and want to give you your freedom so we can decide in freedom what we want to do together. Knowing that a group is much more powerful than one person I do not want to be the guru that is put on a mountain and tells everyone what he has to do.

But I have to do that now. As no one seems to do the right thing, otherwise all the patients in coma would have been on their feet in about 3 years.

All patients in coma have the right to be treated with hpi-therapy and choose if they want to live their life, continue to survive or die. Death is a part of life and must be considered as one of the possibilities to live.

The surviving state that the patient in coma is in, can be changed if the treatment wants it to change and give the patient the possibility to live. Most patients will choose the moving living variation. Some will change the surviving state and give up life to the benefit of the Whole and some few will stay in the surviving modus.